Friday, May 16, 2008
did a troublesome stuffs and mak pple felt tat wei-nan. OH-MINE! i shall promise to myself not to step in ever again.
is still pissed off and angry over wat happened. yes, i knew that it was a **** which i mus obey. all the things that you all did is for the sake of "BUK". i knew i should be doing this, but i cant go through this, myself. sorry for the stupidness and stubborn of me. i seriously hate this sort of feeling, all tose stupid idotic ****. i sincerely apologised to *you. i m quite sick and tired of these things. summmore gonna give reasons that can cover up the reality behind. felt that i am wearing a mask on. i seriously hate it. doing all these things for wat? will anyone know about it?
thought of ways. even had a thought of dropping off. i felt that i m bringing troublesome stuffs for me. so, i thought of giving up, this might mak it more beta and convenience for everyone of us. i m such a useless, stupid, dumb person. however, becox of the emotionals& memories had along this journey, stopped me from doing that. however, when there's one day that stopped me from goin "buk", is all becos of ****. ROARRR!
TO YOU:
I am seriously sorry for what I had done. I didn't know that i did this these things will make you all to feel that difficult. I knew how you all felt when this sorts of things happened. SO, I will try not to repeat this thing again. In future, I might sound hostile or whatever, dont blame me, okay? cause I also dont know how to react when such things happened again. As until this very moment, i still cant accept it. SOrry for the stubborn-ness and give me some time. I will give my best shot for this very last time.
Dont felt guilty about what had happened. You are doing your role. Believe in yourself! JIAYOU!! will be there supporting you all no matter what.
=)
is still pissed off and angry over wat happened. yes, i knew that it was a **** which i mus obey. all the things that you all did is for the sake of "BUK". i knew i should be doing this, but i cant go through this, myself. sorry for the stupidness and stubborn of me. i seriously hate this sort of feeling, all tose stupid idotic ****. i sincerely apologised to *you. i m quite sick and tired of these things. summmore gonna give reasons that can cover up the reality behind. felt that i am wearing a mask on. i seriously hate it. doing all these things for wat? will anyone know about it?
thought of ways. even had a thought of dropping off. i felt that i m bringing troublesome stuffs for me. so, i thought of giving up, this might mak it more beta and convenience for everyone of us. i m such a useless, stupid, dumb person. however, becox of the emotionals& memories had along this journey, stopped me from doing that. however, when there's one day that stopped me from goin "buk", is all becos of ****. ROARRR!
TO YOU:
I am seriously sorry for what I had done. I didn't know that i did this these things will make you all to feel that difficult. I knew how you all felt when this sorts of things happened. SO, I will try not to repeat this thing again. In future, I might sound hostile or whatever, dont blame me, okay? cause I also dont know how to react when such things happened again. As until this very moment, i still cant accept it. SOrry for the stubborn-ness and give me some time. I will give my best shot for this very last time.
Dont felt guilty about what had happened. You are doing your role. Believe in yourself! JIAYOU!! will be there supporting you all no matter what.
=)
what we could have been, Friday, May 16, 2008.
